First Stream of Consciousness of 2011

I'm 26! good fucking lord. 25 gave some comfort, knowing you were still in the first quarter of your life. the first season. spring? although who the hell wants to live until 100? but 26....its like that time of the night when you realize the bar closes in three hours. knowing that sense of finality makes the drinks weaker, the music louder and the girls less appealing.

speaking of girls, is it possible that a guy can have daddy's issues over a girl? like when a girl never feels love and affection from a father, that sense of inadequacy manifests itself into a rigorous desire to prove themselves to the father and gain his love...or the attention of other guys (daddy issues, along with alcohol and the notebook DVD do account for 92% of all hookups) to compensate for the lack of love and attention that they truly crave and believe they need to feel in order to be complete. but is it possible for a guy to have daddy issues over an old lover? having the desire and need to feel loved by the person that never did love you. i've been hurt worse before but this need to prove myself to a girl is infinitely more frustrating...i can't tell if it's pathetic or romantically competitive.

inception is one of those movies that is only good on even numbered viewings. i didn't like it the first time i saw it, loved it the second time i saw it, didnt like it the third time i saw it, liked it the forth time. so its basically like sex in the shower.

i just got a text saying "have you seen the new poptart commercial? bc you look like the kid in it." apparently the commercial was played during the bachelor. why doesnt ir surprise me that they advertise breakfast pastries featuring manboys that look like me during the bachelor?

i should be on the bachelor.

bukowski once said "what matters most is how well you walk through the fire" i totally agree with that but i think drowning would be a better metaphor bc you can't stop drop and roll.

i was bored at work so i signed up for okcupid....its basically facebook for lonely people. there's also a lot of fat girls. the first time i signed on it was like being in a manatee convention and all their profile pics were windows at a manatee aquarium.

that was mean. but thats honestly what i thought.

i need to write more. this is a good start.